Saturday, October 30, 2004
wheee. okay, today was a pretty productive day.
hatred is all that exists;
complications that are first in this line
what i thought was true
but if i had to say goodbye to leave this hell
this came long before
everywhere i go
i'll cry myself to sleep
so much for my happy ending.
went to queenstown library to study with zee and max.
finished 2 and a half revision exercises. =D
then had a quick bite at the cafe downstairs.
saw sarah, after not seeing her for the past.. five years? haha.
she was sposed to meet max. mhmm, yep.
still looks the same though. haha.
so sad that she cant recognise me. oh well.
went home and finished off that last revision exercise.
then went on the comp for a while.
before dad started giving me work to do.
did more than half of a specimen paper.
then after that dad wanted to teach me differentiation.
quite alright so far. but i'm sure it gets tougher. hehh.
sposed to finish off the specimen paper by today. ohwell.
think i'll go off now anyways. feeling kinda exhausted. yupps.
goonights.
this may never start
we could fall apart
and i'd be your memory
lost your sense of fear
feelings insincere
can i be your memory
so get back, back, back to where we lasted
just like i imagined
i could never feel this way
so get back, back, back to the disaster
my heart's beating faster
holding on to feel the same
this may never start
i'll tear us apart
can i be your enemy
losing half a year
waiting for you here
i'd be your anything
so get back, back, back to where we lasted
just like i imagined
i could never feel this way
so get back, back, back to the disaster
my heart's beating faster
holding on to feel the same
this may never start
tearing out my heart
i'd be your memory
lost your sense of fear
feelings disappear
can i be your memory
so get back, back, back to where we lasted
just like i imagined
i could never feel this way
so get back, back, back to the disaster
my heart's beating faster
holding on to feel the same
this may never start
we could fall apart
and i'd be your memory
lost your sense of fear
feelings insincere
can i be your memory
can i be your memory
you dont know what its like to be like me
to be hurt
to feel lost
to be left out in the dark
to be kicked
when youre down
to feel like youve been pushed around
to be on the edge of breaking down
and no one's there to save you
no you dont know what its like
welcome to my life
love is a fairytale.
with all these pictures running through my mind.
knowing endless
consequences
i feel so useless in this.
is made of fiction and i'm following the same
but if i try to make sense of this mess i'm in
i'm not sure where i should begin.
i'm falling, i'm falling...
i'd say my time has served me well.
those who suffer more
i'm too awake for this to be a nightmare.
who said it was easy to put back all these pieces
who said it was so easy to put back all of these pieces.
everyone i meet
every time i try to fall in love
they all want to know why i'm so broken
why am i so cold
why i'm so hard inside.
why am i scared
what am I afraid of
i don't even know
this story's never had an end
ive been waiting
ive been searching
ive been hoping
ive been dreaming you would come back
but i know the ending of this story
youre never coming back
never.. never.. never.. never...
its my
lullaby.
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